When I thought about what to write for this blog post, I became completely overwhelmed and annoyed. One of the biggest destructors for my own soul is comparison. I compare myself a lot, even when I know that comparison is the thief of joy. I was watching the other organizations similar to ours post these elaborate posts, and I wanted to give up. Sometime, I feel as if I am talking to an empty internet. I feel all alone in this world. I feel like there isn’t much to live for and that I’m wasting my time. That’s when it hit me.
This day and this month is Self Harm Awareness. Last year, I was so excited. I was so prepared. I posted a video. I had a movement going. This year, I lost steam. I feel overwhelmingly discouraged by all of this. Quite honestly, I thought about quitting all together. For the past 6 months, I’ve been overwhelmingly stressed with work and post-college life. I’ve felt embarrassed telling people who have these awesome jobs with these awesome apartments in the city with awesome parties and awesome clothes that I struggle each week and have added to the statistic of 20-something with a degree and a job that isn’t in my field. Yes, I have a Bachelor’s Degree (graduated Cum Laude… double major/double minor) and I am a barista. My life has lost meaning.
Late at night, when I can’t sleep, I am reminded of my self harm and wonder if this is the way to cope with the pain. I guess I’ve felt like such a failure and can’t handle life at this moment. I thought about self harm. No one would know. No one would see.
But- there is always a but- it hit me. Over two million people use self harm in the United States alone. Although it is reported among teenagers and young adults more often, self harm does not discriminate against race, gender, socioeconomic background, and sexuality. Self harm impacts EVERYONE.
How does one thing impact everyone? We are people. And people hurt. Hurt people hurt people. People hurt in so many ways. When one person suffers, we all suffer. We are the human race. This war needs to end. This needs to stop.
So, instead of cutting each other in line at Starbucks or yelling at the car that didn’t use a blinker, how can we show some love today? That’s where you come in.
I need you so much right now….
I can’t go on feeling like I am alone. I can’t go on feeling like there is something in it for me… although, I love chatting with you guys on twitter and facebook. I need your help as much as you need mine.
During the next month or even the next year: take a selfie.
Just a few rules.
1. You have to take the photo of yourself.
2. Write on a piece of paper WHO or WHAT you live for.
3. Your piece of paper must be in your selfie
4. Only appropriate pictures, please.
Why and who are you living for even if it is one day at a time?
Send me your photos to info@holdingofwrist and we will post them here!
Together, we can beat this…. Somehow, we will make it together.
Have a great and safe day.
Show your support now.
We need your support!
Together, we can beat this.